Thursday, January 29, 2009

The Day i lost my voice.

the Chinese new year holidays are over!relieved or sad?im pretty much ambivalent abt it, on one hand, i didnt get to do much visiting only did it at my grandma's on monday. fullstop.period. i was bored to tears after that. thank God for some of my church friends,alaster,pang,quek. caught a movie in the night. The Punisher at 2.20am!my latest or rather earliest movie ever!haha.pretty alright show. but not worth my $10.but i managed to win about $25 during "21" and "10", so heck, i won back my movie ticket and even my cab ride home after the movie=)

tuesday saw me playing mahjong through the night!slept at 5.30am and had to drag myself out of bed at 10am for i had work at CLimb Asia at 11=(.booo.i was horribly sleep deprived. and the can of red bull after work did justice!i couldnt doze off after that no matter how hard i tried.boo again. climbed with sherman after work at CA. been ages since i last saw that pighead!haha.secretly training him to get into the NUS team this AUG!=)

Wed: a super tired me dragged myself to school, wanted to run with Faz before training, till i had a tummy ache.plus i was pretty much sleep deprived i didnt want to faint halfway on the track.and best, i totally forgot that there would be a mock comp during trg and i had been climbing in the afternoon!!

hmmm.jensen once again asked me if i was still in the nat team.i had no ideas.literally. called aizan, and he could only check and get back to me a few days later.booo.but i told jensen anw that i think i would drop to the inter cat. hmm.it felt a lil wierd joinin the inter cat. for once, the people in the isolation zones were different, reg,daff,shu hui,si ying,shaoting,yi wei, diana. i remember goin into isolation with ladies like zhao xiu,doris,sandra,cherlene,charlene. all those strong ironladies!

went in and did my first climb easily. i was happy and got a lil too complacent. so when it came to my 2nd route. it looked easy, but i climbed the wrong way and resulted in burst of laughters and judith calling me a "stupid idiot".booo again.but thank God i managed to finish it. did the 3rd route and 4th route.by the 3rd, i was pumped.totally. and i panicked. was i really that weak!=(

managed to come in 2nd for the inter comp. but i didnt feel much. prob coz i have been competing in the open comps since last year, nvr win of course, nvr get into finals coz i suck and i thought that inter cat would be much easier. the irony being i came from a novice cat since jc, no prizes for bouldering at all and went straight to open.the transition was wierd.really. i know my strength is there.not saying im freaking strong but open cat trg had always been tough. i just suck in route reading.sighh.lots more work to do.

still having mixed feelings of whether i should drop to inter cat. sigh.i feel like i dont belong to inter cat yet i know i suck in open cat. not insulting either of the catagories, but just some indescribable feelings of ambivalance......

went to school today with no voice!!!HORROR OF HORRORS!i've been so used to talking all my life, and suddenly i wake up with no voice?how can!!but it happened. my dady started out pretty badly. was super hungry and since i missed my bus to school, i decided to take a short stroll to the nearby coffeeshop to buy food. when i reached there, i realised i couldnt place my order.because i couldnt talk!nothing came out of my mouth. i just looked at the bread stall with a hungry and pathetic face and walked away. i was too embarrassed to use my phone to type out my order. what if the uncle cant even read English!so pai seh la!

went to sch hungry like a dog,elephant, or any other animal la. SW3204 tutorial was equally horrible. Dr Nair requested for all of us to introduce ourselves and tell everyone why we took this module. great.no voice.how?i had to type my reply to cara who helped me convey the message to Dr Nair and the class.how awful man. did lunch with jansen,jud,yi xiang and xiong,zhao xiu and hh!good good lunch.ate my favourite fish soup=) and struggled to talk to them.sigh.

went for my engineering mod and tutorial again!this time we had to discuss the innovativeness in LEGO. i couldnt talk la.so could only whisper.my group mates were struggling to hear me out.sigh.this is a first for me. people actually have to strain their ears to hear me. usually, they tell me to keep it soft.aye.they finally got their wish today!

LORD, please heal my voice!i want to sing in the bathroom again. i want to talk to YOU properly and to everyone else.

today made me realise the gift of the ability to talk!while waiting for my bus to school, i was thinking of the people who either were born mute or lose their ability to talk. it must be sad. esp for those who used to be able to talk and now cant. my heart goes out to them. and i do not want to take such gifts of sight,hearing,speaking for granted now. Thank you Lord for them=)and after losing my voice today did i realise how important the gift of speech was!!!i surprised i even managed to survive today without talking much.it was miserable but it allowed me to think alot. talk less and reflect more!



okies.this is prob my longest post so far. my fingers are tired from typing and my eyes tired from staring at this screen.out!


feeling a little anxious and worry over it, but i know God will guide me through.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

you give and take away.

lots have happened this week. everything went by in a blur. didnt even have time to blog.or rather no mood to do so.

well, for starters, Elfie is no longer in my houe=( his barking was more than my dad could handle. and being the Alpha male Elfie was, and that includes my Dad as well. both couldnt get along. he would bark and snarl at my dad whenever my dad was home. sighh.simply couldnt have 2 hot headed creatures in the same house. war was bound to break out.

got home to a dead quiet house just now after my reunion dinner. i kinda miss elfie's barking yet im thankful as well. havent really had a good night sleep the whole week coz Elfie would bark each time my neighbours opened their doors.sighh.too alert a watchdog is he.

well, i really hope hes doing well at the new house. it was an experience i would never forget. taking Elfie out for his morning and evening walks. hearing him whine and even he making out with his smelly cushion.gross, but that was Elfie.oh wells, im still thankful i got to experience taking care of a dog this week. good but tiring. but one thing's for sure, i will definitely get a dog in my own house. so to all my perspective husbands out there. better be a dog lover.haha.

oops.did i say husbands.i meant HUSBAND. singular!!!

thanks YOU for helping me tide over this difficult period with Elfie.=)really appreciate all you did!!!

well, enough of the Dark Side. hey, its the lunar new year!im supposed to be happy right!?!!?

well, it made me slightly happier that today, my dad's car was mine mine mine!i drove places.literally, to hougang,home,bugis,my uncle's house and back home!!wooo.it was good!and im still learning.ha.

had a fantastic high tea buffet with reg and shaun!!wanted to go for GoodWood park hotel's buffet.but when we got there. the spread was a lil pathetic.no way would we pay 33 bucks for just pastries. all of us fasted breakfast and lunch to eat the buffet la!so we ended up at Marriot Hotel nxt to Tangs. and it was worth it!the spread was scrumptious!and though i wanted to lose weight. i gave in!to sinful indulgances!ha.photos are up on Facebook.kinda lazy to upload them here.

okies.not feeling too good. having s slight fever and sore throat right now. not a good omen according to jansen.soobbs.but im sure the Lord heals!Amen!

alrites. off to rest early!!

and once again, a very happy lunar new year to everyone out there!have a blast collecting the red things.haha.and share the "love" with me!

ps. Love= Money!

kidding!

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

ELFIE!

havent blogged for quite a few days.so much has happened and i was a lil lazy to blog them down. but now that i have quite settled down.here goes!

Sunday, 18th jan.
aft church, went down to valarie's house to check the Jack Russell terrier out! Aft meeting Elfie, we decided to adopt him and try him out for 1-2 weeks. to see if he can get along well with my family!!

Elfie reached home with a anxious yet excited heart. he was goin somewhere new, yet a lil apprehensive of his new owners. well, as expected, there was quite a bit of barking at the door whenever people walked past. he was especially "hostile" to my dad a few times. perhaps its my dad's stern face. but that greedy dog always ran to my dad who always had food in his hands.sighhh.even the way to a dog's heart is through his stomache.tsk ts.no wonder they say man are dog's best friend.

or should it be dogs are man's best friend?ha.both sound the same to me!!

have been having 2 sleepless nights so far.coz elfie barks at anyone near the door.siighh.happens just after i get to drift into a deep sleep then a BARK awakens me.and i have to wake up and tell him to stop.i really hope he will get used to people walking outside.else. i dont know how im gona sleep properly.

managed to walk elfie for the past 2 mornings. the 1st monday morn, he woke me up at 12am and whimpered.i gave up and took my pillows and mattress downstairs and slept next to him.that spoilt dog.and at 7am. he gave me a very nice wake up call!BARKING!couldnt sleep anymore.so i decided to give him one long walk.and thank God he did his small and big business at the grass!!haha.not at home.

well. really hope i can keep elfie. my dad said if he continues to be a barking nuisance and neighbours complain. we might have to give him back=(ayee.ok.gona keep unhappy thoughts out!


my handsome lil elfie!!

had a good supper at sheares last night!after a hard training.body is aching like crap once again. jansen allowed me to drive the car to sheares!so a very nervous yi xiang,bert and jansen boarded the car.had a bit of problems parking without the poles=(ha.but STILL LEARNING!

ate so much and for so long that i missed my last 151 home=(but jansen very kindly sent me all the way hom!thank you jansen!!!

celebrated jac's 21st today!soph,cara,mel wong and cheryl came too!and i havent seen them in ages!was so glad to see all of them.but amazingly, the min we saw each other, we were talking and behaving as if we were still back in St margs!!ahh.the nostalgic feeling came back and very soon we were reminscing about the good ole days back in st margs!

and we decided to visit st margs this fri!but not wearing out uniforms of course!haha.cant wait to see my teachers again!wonder if they will still recognise us!!




once again, happy 21st KUKU!!!






and not forgetting my dear REGINA who turned 21 on 20 jan as well!!=) thanks for the many more years of good ole friendship to come!and thanks for the past few years=)

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Not because of what i've done, but because of WHO YOU ARE!

PRAISE THE LORD. i finally passed my practical test today afternoon!!!!i cannot describe how horrible and nervous i felt before the test, during the test and after the test.sigh.i thank God i never ever have to go through it again. its seriously worse than taking an exam. i know failing my driving is not the end of the world., but its the money i have been investing all this while, finally, i need not spend money on any more driving lessons!phewww.it was tough. i remember between the previous test and this test, i scrimped so much la. didnt dare to do much shopping coz i had to save the money for the lessons and tests. but dont know why still never lose weight.haha.maybe coz i ate the same amount of food.=(

during the test, my tester kept talking to me.alittle distracting, but thank God i was able to multi- task.ha.he said i was a little "slow" at times, esp in overtaking and crossing road junctions..booo.but will continue to work on it when i drive again!!sadly, my dad didnt trust me with the car just now when i met him. it was less than a 5 min drive back home but he didnt let me.boooo.nvm, i "booked" a slot with him on sunday morning, driving to church!haha.

oh wells, for this test today, i actually missed a total of 3 lectures!!time to go catch up on them!!

once again, i wana thank all my friends who have prayed for me and given me much encouragement for this test!and of course, God for making the pass even possible!!=)

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

butterflies in my stomach!

tiring day.slept till i got a headache.groanss.training was really tough. my fingers felt like it wasnt part of me anymore.i have nvr climbed so much in one day.sigh...

ok.i think that was quite an exaggeration but u guys get my point!ha.

having the super jitters right now.my practical test is tomorrow,4.30!and i almost couldnt sleep last night.each time i closed my eyes, i would imagine myself driving and making those silly mistakes in the circuit!arrgghhh.God please guide my hand and eye and leg co-ordination tomorrow!i really want to pass and stop wasting money on retaking lessons and tests!!!=(and i wish daffodil all the best as well!!

was looking on kate spade's online catalogue a few mins ago, searching for reg's birthday present. showed a particular handbag to yi xiong who still doesnt know what to buy for her. and this is his reply!

xiong. says: (11:49:04 PM)
you be my gf for 10yrs marry me for 20yr give birth to 30children then i buy for you!

wah.when i read that. i almost died laughing and almost immediately, pity and sympathy filled me up for yi xiong's future wife!!haha.imagine having to go through all these trouble and pain just to get a bag from him.any takers on how much the handbag cost??


$375 USD!!!.tsk tskk.the stingy yi xiong!haha.he'll prob kill me for writing these down. coz maybe now no girl will dare to be with him!muahaha

okies.my fingers are really sore and i want to get enough rest for tomorrow!!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

weight loss program day 1!

today went pretty well. managed to get for my first engineering module class on time!!!and it was interesting.thank God there is no exams for it!haha.anw, met jansen,yi xiong,yi xiang,chuan ming and jia wei for lunch.had a good chicken chop with rice from the indonesian stall!yummy yummy!my first attempt to lose weight gone.sigh

had my first most boring SW3101 lect today. bad timing.2pm, just after my lunch.so felt like sleeping but i was right infront of my lecturer.so i had to force myself to be awake. after lect, joined chuan ming,shao ting,jansen,yi xiong,jia wei and heng hong for a trip down to PGP for BUBBLETEA!(2nd attempt at weight loss failed).sighhh.stupid pearls.taste so good yet so rich in carbo.grrrr.i wonder if theres such a thing as a zero calorie chewy black thing to put into bubble tea!someone should go invent that!!

today was my first ride home aft school during the peak hour.after 1 and a half years of hall, i completely lost touch with the traffic and human jam on the roads during peak hours!boarded bus 151 at kent ridge terminal at 6.30!and reached toa payoh at 7.50pm!the bus ride took a crazy 1 hour plus journey!normally, it would have been a 40min or less ride to sch.but the jam was really bad along bukit timah road.sigh.nxt time im definitely gona avoid the peak hours.prob hang around sch first.i dont wana waste my time in the bus squeezing with people.

back to watching DR house episodes agaiN!i seriously love that guy!today's episode included this super hilarious albeit a little racist line that Dr house said

Dr house (looking at Dr Foreman, a Black guy when he wanted to write something on the whiteboard): "theres a reason why they call it a white board."

after a few lines...with Dr foreman glaring at Dr house.

Dr Foreman: "alrights, now would you please pass me the Black marker?"

and of course Dr House glares back at Dr Foreman!i laughed till my sides ached!!haha

and sadly, i have to control watching such videos.need to start on my readings!i wana get a good headstart for this sem!!!


conclusion of the weight loss program: FAILED.

gona try again TOMORROW!


oh and i would like to clarify that im trying to lose weight because i want to drop to a lower weight catagory for muay thai comps. and i want to start eating healthily so my workouts are more effectively!!!ha.i've got people telling me to stop losing weight, but i know my eating habits.not very healthy for now.so gona try snacking less!!

Monday, January 12, 2009

bad day.

ahhhh.cannot believe that my first day of school kicked off with a bad start!i woke up at 10.30, had my bath and made myself a delicious cheese,ham and mushroom sandwich!it was so good i ate a total of 4 slices!(pig)

anyways, i thought my perfumes and cosmetics lect was at 2pm. i now realised i may have parallex error vision. so i happily left my house at 1pm!thinking i would be super on time for my 1st lecture of the semester!!!woohooo.BUT, cara msg me to tell me she was in lect alr!i was alr on the bus, so couldnt turn back. that was all i had for school today.boooo.talk about monday BLUES!it should be monday BOO BOOS!!i bugged bertrand in his room for about an hour coz i was stranded. my driving lesson didnt start till 4.30.

driving was bad. i stalled my engine thrice, didnt get the biting point on the slope(again), sucked at parking (as usual).sigh.how am i gona pass my driving on thur at this rate!help.and something really gross happened. i was driving and my instructor was having flu. he took out his "tissue paper" which was actually toilet paper and happily prepared to blow a gigantic lump of mucus. and guess where it landed!!!

a)on the tissue paper of course
b)on felicia's arms and legs
c)he sucked all the mucus back in!






and the ans is B B B B B!he blew the mucus onto my hands and legs!thank god i didnt do an emergency break.it was utterly gross. but i kept my cool.no choice leh.driving on the road.so dangerous.he was really apologetic and gave me more toilet paper to wipe and i "skilledfully" used one hand to clean the mucus while the other hand handled the wheel.haha

training was tough today. havent been climbing for almost a month i think!fingers totally strengthless!!=(i need to train moreeee!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

I MISS......

school is officially starting tomorrow, 12 jan 2008 for me. and i still miss so many things i have gone through in the past.

-i miss rushing through my homework in the morning before assembly. (that includes lots of copying).
-i miss singing the national anthem with my school mates. i
-miss my principal catching people with more than 1 pair of ear piercings, folded socks, coloured sports bra, sporting too short a hairstyle for an All girls school
-i miss changing direction whenever we see the principal or discipline master walking towards us
- i miss racing with my friends for the canteen
- i miss cutting queues to get a quick lunch
- i miss forgetting my name tag and having to wear big ugly ones which cost a crazy $2!!!
- i miss using my school tie to wipe my mouth after a meal
- i miss hanging out in town after school each day
- i miss helping my teacheds carry books to the staff room so that i can shave off a few mins for the next class!
- i miss eating in the school library


oh well. theres certainly so much so much more that i miss but if i were to write all of them down. i might as well publish a book!ha

my first lecture tomorrow, but i have to give it a miss coz i have my driving lesson!!!darn. thursday is my test and i really do not want to fail it again.sigh.its sucking my dry of my allowance. though my allowance increased this year coz i have no more hall to stay. but half or rather 3/4 is goin into my driving!this sucks. but no choice. i got myself this test date.

climbings training gona be tough this sem. with almost 1 comp every month all the way up till Aug!which means i have many more chances to do well!

watched leon compete in the national boxing championships at some ulu-ed HDB estate at Admiralty. the Novice boxers were really "noobish", just like how i am right now in Muay Thai.ha. leon did a good fight. but his opponent had a super big height advantage. i thank God i am of an average height of 1.64. but to all those below, fret not!u just gota be stronger in other areas!=)

its a new school semester for me. and i have more or less prepared my files to put my new notes in. kinda excited yet dreading it at the same time. cant explain it in words. but i am so determined to work harder this sem. God please help me through this!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

In tough times, i will still praise you.

had a fantastic praise and worship service this morning in church. Terence led the band and the congregation into welcoming the year 2009. call it a "goose-bumping" experience during the P&W, songs were arranged in an appropriate order and i could see terence was making an effort to involve the congregation in the worship as well!really felt the presence of God. Sermon was good as well, and guess what!im just started writing my notes for the sermons once agaiN!haha.decided that if i want to learn more about God's word and get closer to him, i gota understand his teachings first!

went with pretty high hopes to the Animal Lover's league to view Junior with my parents, saw probably the most dogs i had ever seen in my life. there must have been like a 100 dogs, all kinds of breeds!!awesome-ness. but unfortunately, my parents didnt like the size of Junior. strangely, after walking Junior for about 10mins or so, i grew an attachement to him. and of course it didnt come as a surprise when my parents said no to junior, i cried buckets. shucks. i got my temper get the better of me in the car. i was really upset that my parents didnt even give me a chance to keep junior for a week to try things out.

got home, went to bed immediately. kudos to exhaustion and wanting to sleep the pain away. and terence the dog co-ordinator smsed me saying there was another jack russel up for adoption. wee!

back to muay thai training again tomorrow. i need to shed off the kilos!

still waiting.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

2009!!!

wow.it is finally 2009 and i am hmmm 3 days late in blogging my first entry for 2009?haha.im even starting to write m own personal diary. and i really hope i can last.buuut guess what?i dont think i can start writing my first entry till tomorrow.ha.im too sleep deprived alr.

had a great year end party at my house, the NUS rockclimbers came over and had a great time of stuffing ourselves with the steamboat dinner and WE WATCHED IP MAN AGAIN.thats my 3RD TIME IN LESS THAN 1 MONTH!haha.but i still love it. and i have just confirmed that KL movies does cut scenes.grrrr.so irritating of them to do that.

went to jansen's house on friday and boy!his house is big and lovely!love the glass door concept.ha.and his house is exceptionally neat and tidy. yixiong was right man in saying jansen's was one of the neatest house he had ever been to. learnt how to play RISk!CANT WAIT TO PLAY IT AGAIN.ah.also spent the few hours "wrecking" his piano and guitar!thank you jansen for opening up your house!!

yesterday was Eunice's 21st!our first in the youth group for now.ha.very soon it will be all of us and of course, for my classmates and my batch of rockclimbers as well. WE ARE ALL TURNING 21!welcome to adulthood!and i still wish i could turn back time. but i learnt something during the L2L meeting. never look back at the past but rather do my best at TODAY. and not overestimate TOMORROW!ha.

my new year resolution for 2009?

-growing into a STRONGER AND CLOSER relationship to God!!!!!

-not entering into the vicious cycle of being late. ( im always late because other people have been late before. but this year, i dont want to play the blame game and be late coz i think others will be late. i want to be early for everything i can!)

-study much harder than before. my grades for the past 3 sems have been HORRENDOUS!!!my aim is to pull it up to a cap above 3.0!

-remembering all of my friend's birthday!aye. no need for big presents, but something that shows my gratitude to them!

-improve my bass playing to be able to confidently lead the congregation into a time of praise and worship.

-win something at muay thai and climbing. i do hope i can!and i will work towards it!ha

well, that pretty much sums up my new year resolution.ha.and i pray its not just for the sake of writing it down and telling people. hey!i got a new resolution written out and i leave it in one corner of my brain and not do anything about it. NO!im gona achieve them!!

FEL CAN DO IT! and fel is off to bed right now. she is sleep deprived!